Existential Angst

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Existential Angst is the relation to one being aware of the possibility that life lacks meaning, causing an extreme form of anxiety, and a feeling of despair or hopelessness.


Shocking news Linkin Park‘s lead vocalist Chester Bennington dead at 41. (3/20/76 – 7/20/17).  TMZ News Red Here.

I was checking twitter when I saw the #RIPChesterBennington trending. Shocked! I thought it was just another fake tweet. When I saw Mike Shinoda‘s tweet, it was indeed true. Still in disbelief.


Why am I suddenly blogging about this? 🤔😢

Who wouldn’t be drawn to LP’s music. I bet all of us have that alternative rock side. Maybe some people who knows me might have raised their eyebrows because I do listen to these kind of music. Well, surprise, surperise! Like I said who wouldn’t! 💯

LP is an awesome band. CB’s vocals has that powerful voice which is rasply enchanting. MS on the hand have that smooth soulful swag voice. LP’s just addictive. 🔥

Their songs are my go to songs (lullaby) whenever I’m going through those difficult/challenging times.  The lyrics of their songs are simply relatable, deeply personal. some says it’s kind of dark and negative but in that darkness you find solace. The poetic rhythm of the verses are eargasmic. Their music is just spot on. It pierces right through your soul. I dunno it’s explainable.  #unspokensilence #innermostthoughts #mydecember

I have a playlist which I called Existential Angst on my laptop, which then I created in Spotify, 6 songs (5 from LP and 1 from Pearl Jam). These songs were also part of my driving playlists. It’s automatic that when you play LP’s songs, max volume, speaker or headphone blasting. 🔊

While doing this blog post, watching side by side in another browser LP’s concert at the Southside Festival 2017. And this is the last concert performance of LP with Chester.

Rest in Peace Chester. Earth just lost another brilliant and amazing talent. 💔


NUMB (2003 – Meteora)

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when…
Is be more like me and be less like you

CRAWLING (2000 – Hybrid Theory)

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling I can’t seem

IN THE END (2000 – Hybrid Theory)

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

SOMEWHERE I BELONG (2003 – Meteora)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

ONE STEP CLOSER (2002 – Hybrid Theory)

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I’ve said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you’ll say
You’ll find that out anyway

HEAVY (2017 – One More Light)

I’m holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what’s bringing me down
If I just let go, I’d be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?

TALKING TO MYSELF (2017 – One More Light)

Tell me what I gotta do
There’s no getting through to you
The lights are on but nobody’s home (nobody’s home)
You say I can’t understand
But you’re not giving me a chance

ONE MORE LIGHT (2017 – One More Light)

Should’ve stayed, were there signs, I ignored?
Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore?
We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep
There are things that we can have, but can’t keep

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